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17 May 2009 @ 09:04 pm
recently I've realised the reason why I love films and tv so much, because it gives me a place to escape to. Right now for some reason I'm feeling very lonely and I don't think the people around me realise it, I don't feel lonely because the people around me are ignoring me so much but more because it seems like i just have superficial relationships with everyone, especially one of my closest friends. We used to spend loads of time together but now I feel so out of the loop with her I don't even feel like an actual friend.

So this year I started at a different 6th form from all of my friends, to be honest if I could make the decision again I would totally go to there school but whatever I'm here now and I can't do anything about it. And in that new school my friend has made loads of new friends obviously I have no problem with this, I have a problem with that it seems I'm getting pushed out by these other people, like she's found more interesting, better people than me so I've been demoted to a tag along friend. To be honest I feel really awkward whenever I'm alone with her now like we never have anything to talk about and don't really like going out with her and her friends because i feel like an outsider but that's the only time I get to go out so I usually go. To be honest I can see why she would rather be with these other friends, their confident, funny, have better social lives than me, are way cooler than me in every way and I would probably do the same as her. It's just I'm the one that's getting pushed out and it isn't the best experience.

I have two separate lives almost, school and outside school. in school I'm really quiet and majorly awkward,  never feel comfortable in the school and I always feel like people are laughing at me. Outside school, I felt comfortable, I felt like people wanted to be with me and wanted to hang around me and include me in things but now it feels just like school, I feel awkward and it's horrible I have no release any more.

This is where Tv and Film come in, now the only time I feel at ease is when I'm at home alone watching other peoples lives. I don't know how I'm going to change how I feel without making someone angry or putting this pressure on other people, I hate conflict but this is breaking me up inside, I'm on the verge of tears just writing this. But really what am I expecting her to just stop being friends with these people because I don't want that to happen either because I like them too, I just sort of want to be her friend again, I feel like I don't know her anymore. I feel like if I say something it can either make things better or I'll lose my friends forever, especially certain friends I thought would be lifelong not just ones passing in and out.

anyway that's my blog...I don't know if this helped or hindered me but I feel really shitty now I've written this.
17 March 2009 @ 01:51 pm
Top o' the morning to you! Has anyone ever pinched you for not wearing green on St. Patrick's Day?
OMG like just now someone from my biology class pinched me, I had never even heard that you pinch someone for not wearing green! I told him I had never heard of that so he asked "would you rather I punch you". I obviously said "no thanks".
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: This is for real by Motion city soundtrack
11 March 2009 @ 08:06 pm
--Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
--Post the first definition it gives you.

1) Your name?
Really cool,sweet girl.

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Current Location: Home
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: fearless by Taylor Swift
24 February 2009 @ 07:55 pm
Describe your morning routine.
7.30 wake up and watch the news drift in and out of sleep
7.45 get out of bed and get dressed and brush hair
7.55 wash face and clean teeth
8.05 drink coffee/tea, maybe eat something, get bag ready for school
8.15 leave my house for school.

This is what I do pretty much every week day, on the weekend it's not that structured usually matters what I'm doing. Oh and BTW I have my showers at night because it takes to long to wash and dry my hair and I wash my hair every day so it cuts down on time in the morning. I like to sleep what can I say.

Also How good is Chuck! I love that show it's so awesome more people should watch it. Although I wish we learnt more about the characters, that episode where we learnt about Sarah was really good. I want to know about Chuck's Dad and Mum.

Current Location: under the stairs
Current Mood: blankblank
Current Music: Chuck season 2 episode 14
03 February 2009 @ 01:24 pm
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

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off to go write an essay :(
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Current Music: bring 'Em Out by Hawk Nelson
02 February 2009 @ 02:18 pm

It's snowing WOOOOO. I got the day off today and I'm a little bored cos I can't go anywhere as all buses have stopped and I'd rather not be driven anywhere just in case.
so it's meme time!

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits: breathe by Michelle Branch it seems I am in PS I love you although I've never seen that movie this song was in the trailer.
Waking Up: what I've been looking for by Sharpay and Ryan I rather this version to troy and gabriellas.
First Day At School: Black swan by Thom Yorke I'm guessing I'm a loner walking into school with my hood up.
Falling In Love: I Get Around by The beach boys an awesome song kinda slutty though for falling in love.
Breaking Up: Your song by Kate Walsh aww this is kinda sad this would fit.
Prom: Song for Mutya(out of control) by Groove armada I love this song I would dance anyday to it
Life is Good: can't get it out of my head by John Paul White quite a melancholy song...I guess life is good but in a sad way
Mental Breakdown: Shattered Glass by Britney Spears just imagining me breaking down in a way to make me sing karaoke or dance on a table.
Driving: (let's get) Crazy by Hannah Montana LOL
Flashback: You give me something by James Morrison AWW
Getting Back Together: In This City by Iglu and Hartly the pictures in my head sort of see a nick and norah type of getting back together.
Wedding: Mama, I'm a big girl now by Nikki Blonsky, Marissa Janet Winokur and Ricky Lake LOL
Paying the Dues: Toothpaste Kisses by The Maccabees it's romantic paying dues dontcha know
The Night Before The War: Come Back and Stay by James Morrison come back and stay for good this time. I think this suits the nature of war.
Final Battle: Hot 'N Cold by Katy Perry haha
Moment of Triumph: Kids of the Future by Jonas brothers pretty triumphant song.
Death Scene: Breakout by Katy Perry happiest death scene ever 
Funeral Song: Our song by Taylor Swift another pretty happy song for a sad occasion.
End Credits: The first cut is the deepest by Sheryl Crow prettiest song EVER

Current Location: under the stairs
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: the first cut is the deepest by Sheryl Crow
30 January 2009 @ 10:37 pm
after that depressing post (which has made me feel better) I have decided to do the google meme sweeping the youtube world except not vlogging it just normally blogging :D

so lets begin
Roisin needs a cuddle
Roisin looks like dannii minogue
Roisin says hell no!
Roisin wants to go it alone now
Roisin does it again
Roisin hates black sheep
Roisin asks how many more deaths will it take to change the way M.E. is treated?
Roisin liked jammie dodgers
Roisin eats... I didn't find anything for this one but I did find End poverty and world hunger...Eat the Poor
Roisin wears Fringed One Sleeve Poncho
Roisin arrested for alleged involvement in an attack on a British army base in Germany
Roisin loves vaseline

well that was fun :D
try it out. I expect people with more common names will get better results I had to look hard for some of these. well in relative terms to people with names like sarah.
Current Location: sofa
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: love letter to japan by The Bird and The Bee
I'm feeling very  lonely at the moment, I feel left out when I don't even know if I'm being left out. I know it sounds wierd but I always think my friends are angry with me when they don't talk to me online or something. I have really bad paranoia like that. And it doesn't help that I don't get to see my best friends because we go to different 6th forms. I haven't even talked to some people in weeks. Maybe it's my fault I haven't done enough to keep in touch so I know I do have some part in it but it's been a hard couple of weeks and I feel distance between me and many friends.
recently my uncle passed away and it was horrible, one of the worst days of my life was his funeral. It was my first ever funeral where I knew the person well (I've been to funerals many a time but it was always either someone my mum knew from Ireland that I had been strung along to) and although I was sad about my uncle what upset me more was seeing my mum sad. If I see my mum cry I cry that's just how I work. Not only this was happening but I also had 3 exams my first being the day after he had died. So it ws a pretty stressful time and for some reason I couldn't tell anyone outright, because 1. the only way of communicating was online, I don't really use phones and I never saw anyone and 2.I found it awkward.
so I only told like 1 person at first and she helped me a lot I'm glad I told her and she will be a best friend I will never forget. I don't think she realised how much she helped me with that one msn conversation.
I've only told like 3 other people since then and it was mostly

me:I'm not doing too good how are you?
other person:I'm alright. whats wrong?
me:well, my uncle died.
OP:are you alright?
OP:well if you need anything just say I'll be there

so although very nice its not like I worked trough much with them. and I haven't even spoke face to face to anyone about it except for the people at my school and even then it was just

OP:why weren't you in the other day?
me:oh...my uncle died

although one person did try to ask me how are you but she said it so quietly that I'm not sure she actually said that.

so basically I'm feeling a little lonely today. I'm sure it will pass it may also be because I have been in my house for 3 days because of tonsillitis...boo YOU VIRUS WHORE!
Current Location: my sofa underneath a duvet.
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: the sound of Qi on my TV
04 December 2008 @ 10:54 pm

I hate Vanessa! I have no sympathy for her, she's a bad character in the show. What's funny is I love her in the books. Well book, I've only read the prequel to gossip girl because someone else has taken out the first book from my school library. She's so badass in the book and I actually relate to her, the way she explodes if dan does something random but keeps it inside. I do that all the time. If I have a crush I will not even make a move, I don't even tell anyone that I have the crush because I just get really embarassed, from year 7-10 I didn't really know any boys and with me I have to have heard them speak to someone, atleast get a feel for their personality before I can get a crush on them. Anyway, tangent over, what brought all this on was the latest episode of gossip girl (season 2 epsiode 12, I'm writing this while watching it).


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Well I'm gonna watch the rest of the episode, you never know I could  change my mind about someone but I ver much doubt it. BTW sorry about this, I'm not very eloquent and have never been the best at writing anything so if this made no sense I'm very sorry. This is probably why I stick to making pictures pretty with photoshop.

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: gossip girl